These days I do have to be thankful, very thankful indeed for the small things. What are those things you may ask? At least for right now it is 0.1% of my Hemoglobin A1c test. 3 months ago it was 7.2% and my results from yesterday are 7.1%. I guess in the grand scheme of things it is really not a big drop but it is a huge one when I think about it. My control over the past years hasn’t been the greatest. Sure there have been times when it is good, times when it is fantastic, and then there are the times where I just don’t care. Lately, at least in the last few years, there have been far fewer instances of the “I don’t care” periods of my care. Right now I am in a period where I care a lot. Why you may ask? I’ve been thinking a lot about the future, and the present really. I just passed my 20 year anniversary with diabetes and while I was very happy to made it to that milestone, I was also scared that I still have this disease after all this time. I’ve had it for more than half my life now. Crazy when I really think about it.
I remember being in high school and college and not really giving a damn about my care, let alone my numbers. Some of it was my own ambivalence, some was rebelliousness, and some was that when I look back on it I really hated my endo. I always had the support of my wife who got a crash course in diabetes care when we started dating many years ago. And since then she has been with me every step of the way. Having to do insulin shots at college, hospitalizations, starting on a pump; you name it she went through it with me. She has always been the one person who has always been there for me to support me and keep me grounded. She does this not just with my diabetes care but with life in general too.
Now that I have a really good endo I see how important he/she can be to your care. When you have a doctor that is really pulling for you and knowledgable it makes you that much more a part of your own care. Realistically it is ultimately up to me no matter what but the support of truly great people help immensley.
The other small thing I am thankful for is my CGMS. In the short time (6 months) that I have had the device, it has given me a wealth of information that I would not otherwise have access to. Seeing trends and being able to know what my bg is as I am exercising or wherever is a great thing. Also, the CGMS has helped me get my A1c down to a reasonable level. I dropped a full percentage point in less than a year. I could never do that on my own. It just shows that with my head on straight and support of my wife I can do anything.